Search For Meaning Of Life A Astrid Darmawan

"One question that inspires me, why God gave birth to me to earth? Yet God does not need us, do not need our prayers. Do we believe or not, she remains one God. Even the presence or absence of us, the greatness of God is not diminished one bit. "

Astrid Darmawan Ayudewi feel vertigo meaning of his life. She was restless just when all was accomplished. Imagine, at age who had just 20 years, his income as a top model at U.S. $ 3,000 per day. Intellectually, she includes women who are intelligent so they can study at one of the best universities in Indonesia. In addition, the versatility makes it known to hang out a lot of famous people.

However, it did not take her ease of living in peace and tranquility of the heart. She feels his life is empty. All that is done everyday routines only run alone. Like the robots that do not recognize the meaning. On that point, he finally handed over entirely to find meaning in life. Altogether, including body and soul. "I am willing though God take my life today, as long as I know to what I was born," said the woman bloody Sundanese, Javanese, and Dutch. She is very confident, die in search of truth is more honorable than to die because his contract had ended and God did not want to extend it. "Dead time the contract is up it's called death ridiculous," specifically.

Sincerity to find the meaning of life makes it more serious study. Many books read. She also went to lectures, recitation and hear a description of the Ustad. Not satisfied with one book, she looked for another book. If studying at a religious teacher can not answer the anxiety felt heart, not shrink it comes to teaching others and learn from the Ustad there. Learning from the many books and religious teachers, making the former national athletes were more familiar with Islam. She also said, "Learning should not be stopped. Not good also we are only just learning to one teacher. That will cause taklit blind. "